Guest Spot on Akasha Temple Live!

Ruthann and Casey J. - hosts of Akasha Temple Live!

Follow the link to hear me chat it up with Ruthann Amarteifio from Akasha Temple Live on blogtalkradio! I dish about my upbringing and how it inspired my debuting novel, entitled Nobody Puts Crack Baby in a Corner. I also talk about various situations going on my life presently, my spiritual path, and where I hope to be in the next five years in my career and in my spiritual undertakings. It was my first interview of the sort and I had so much fun! I’m blessed to have been afforded the opportunity and Ruthann would love to have me on the show again. I quickly obliged! Listen in now and catch me at the 32 minute mark!



5 Minutes Before the Miracle

There is never a good time to give up on your dreams.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.” – Nelson Mandela

I used to think sayings like that were complete crap. Why would someone fear success or be afraid of living out their dreams? Well, now that I’ve got some years on me and some wisdom under my belt, I can see exactly why what the great teacher said was true.

I’m sitting here blogging because I’m dragging my knuckles again with finishing this book project and publishing it for the world to see. I want this so bad – to live my life as a successful author – to manifest my other career and life goals – to walk through this door that has been opened for me – but it’s scary. I try to remain positive and sure about myself, but I have days when I’m near tears because I’m afraid that my book isn’t good enough or that people won’t respond well to it, or at all. I have to remind myself of my passion and my gift for writing. I have to shake myself and remember the words of the people who have believed in me and what I can do, who are taken by my story and what to hear more. I think about the means and support that have been provided for me in order to do this. I have to remember the brilliance, the realness, and the strength in this story – and in me.

I haven’t lived the life I’ve lived and survived attempting to end my own life just to NOT be successful in my endeavors – now THAT would be crap! So, I will forge ahead with a warriors spirit, knowing that what I’ve done is not just about me and my sometimes fickle feelings. It’s about the story that needs to be told and the lives that can be changed because of what I have to say. Yes, lil ole me.

A great friend and teacher of mine once said to me, “Don’t give up five minutes before the miracle!” I understood what he meant when he said it, but it’s never meant more than it does now.

At just under 300 pages, I’m supposed to get cold feet NOW?!?!? “NOT I!” said the Dava.

By Any Means Necessary

Have you subscribed to the God/dess RSS feed?

I’m quite convinced that The Divine is sending me messages through mediums like the television and the internet.

This is not psychobabble and there’s no need to call the authorities – it’s truthfully what I’ve been experiencing within the last week or so, the most recent example being just a few minutes ago.

I woke up about an hour ago with the bee gees from having eaten three pieces of pizza and falling asleep immediately afterwards. I’m lactose intolerant, so eating the pizza was my first fail, letting that cheese sit on my gut being the second. Now that I’ve grossed you out, let me engross you with the story of why I believe I’m being paranormally communicated with through technology.

So I got up, stomach bubbling, and did what every person does when they don’t feel good and can’t go back to sleep. I got on facebook. I was just scrolling through all the awesome statuses I’d missed while I was asleep (is the sarcasm clear enough here?). There wasn’t much going on in the news feed so I gave up my plans for doing nothing on the internet until I passed out again. As I was about to log out and try to lay back down, I saw this link posted by a friend:
(Please do click it, by the way. Even if you aren’t in the area you can still donate. You can find agencies in your area if you want to volunteer!)

She had prefaced her post with a quick status about doing something great for someone for Christmas. I had been interested in getting involved in the community but with everything going on in my life, those plans kind of fell by the wayside. So, I’m looking through the site and I’m reading all of these amazing stories of foster kids finding families and being able to stay with their siblings instead of being split up – I was so moved. Knowing that I’m not yet at a point in life where I would be able to foster or adopt, I started looking around on the site for ideas on other ways to get involved. I saw that there were opportunities for mentoring and tutoring and I KNEW that both would be something I could do!

In my book, I talk about my elementary school principal and how, instead of punishing me when I got in trouble, he would send me to volunteer in the fist grade classrooms. He saw something in me back then that I’m just beginning to see in myself – the ability and desire to lead and teach.

I started getting all of these amazing visions in my head of being a great example for kids going through a similar situations to the ones I went through. I saw myself teaching kids and helping them to realize that they don’t have to be put in a corner for the rest of their lives either. I let myself get lost in the vision and it quickly turned into me speaking to both children and parents, and then doing speaking engagements at conferences for the organization. It wasn’t until the very end of the vision that I realized that the desire to serve could also help me promote my book by using it as a teaching tool.

That one hyperlink changed the vision I had for my future within just minutes, seconds even. I saw myself as an important part of my community and changing the face of fostering and adoption overall, for the better. I saw myself launching a successful writing and business career through sharing my story with children who are fighting the odds just like I did and showing them the way by BEING the way. I could teach parents about the importance of learning the culture and needs of the child and working them into their lives just as much as they try to integrate the child into theirs.

Is your mind blown yet? Because it should be.

As whacked out as this sounds, I’m so glad I ate that pizza and suffered the consequences. Otherwise I may not have woken up in the middle of the night and gotten on the computer.

God does, indeed, work in mysterious ways.