I’m sorry if anyone is made butthurt by this, but “New Year’s Resolutions” are silly. Waiting for a new year to start in order to begin doing the things that will make you a better you is absurd. We don’t know what could happen from one SECOND to the next, let alone next year, so be your best self and live to your highest potential EVERY day. Then, you’ll be able look back at the year and say, “Damn, I’m good!” and look forward in confidence, knowing that you’ve set a tone for the coming year with your actions and faith in the present. I’ve taken my own advice, for once, and I’m so pleased with what I see, what I feel, and what I know is coming down the line for me in 2012. It’s important to remain present, but it’s always helpful to recap and set intentions for the future, so I’m going to share a little bit of my story of the last year:
On December 31st 2010 I was still living with my father and brother in a one bedroom apartment near the seedy downtown area of Reno, Nevada. I was sleeping on the floor on a mattress, which I had to lift and set up against the wall every morning before work so that my dog wouldn’t piss or shit on it. I had finally gotten a job after a year and a half of trying, so I was at least making some head way. I was working to earn money and I was working on myself spiritually as well, but I was still a bit lost, wandering. I wanted new and different things for my life and though I was still living in a chaotic and often oppressive environment, at that time I had begun to develop the will power to have faith and believe passed what I could see with my two eyes. As I rode the bus to and from work, I drifted off and allowed myself to create images of something better. I dreamed of working for myself and being an author, just like I’d always wanted. I dreamed of living a creative and fruitful life. I dreamed of having the love and support necessary for my growth. I dreamed of taking back the reigns and living my life in accordance with what was in my heart.
Fast forward to today, December 31st 2011. I’m sitting in my office space typing this, with a beautiful view of the woods just outside my window. I have a sacred space, and the peace, love, and support I need to accomplish my goals personally, spiritually, and career wise. I’ve written and self published my first book and it’s receiving great reviews and support, and I’m preparing to gather resources to invest into other ventures. I’ve been awakened spiritually and I’m on a path that feels like “home”. I’ve made amends with the people, situations, and thoughts that had previously kept me bound to negative energy, and I’ve cast out that which does not serve me. The ability to do this has seen me through a most difficult situation with my daughter, and I continue to see that situation unfold in my favor.
Looking back on 2011, I am so very proud of myself – for having the faith, for taking action, for sharing the love, and for allowing myself to dream. More so than any of that, I am grateful – to The Creator, to my chosen deities, to the angels, to my ancestors, to my spirit and animals guides, and to all the helpers in the unseen realms who have made my ability to live this life possible. I’m thankful for all of the wonderful people who have been placed on my path and I on theirs. I’m blessed for all of the opportunities I’ve been afforded. I’m just so grateful, and so humbled.
With a humble heart and a powerful mind, I look into 2012 and I see more books, a business, stronger relationships, a healthier body, success, prosperity, abundance, opportunities to teach and heal, and more powerful magic! “This or something better”, indeed.